[AmeeR SyuhadA] –sEvmEk la RouGe–

May Allah forgive your sins and accept all your good deeds. May Allah bless you with His Mercy and His Jannah.

I received a message today from one of my brothers. He is leaving soon for furthering study.

“salam abg alwi, time kaseh byk2 didik saya 2 tahun di kolej..Allah saje yg dpt balas jase abang..;-)

Alhamdulillah, may Allah save you and us from the evil of ourselves. May we meet again insya Allah.

It is hard when you have the responsibility.

it is harder if you are the leader of men.

Umar al-Khattab in one occasion had been angry with his sahabas, by saying;

“All of you have pledge me as the caliph, and when i assign you with responsibility then you turn it down?”

It is easy to appoint somebody for some responsiblities just because we dont want to take it.

And we promise to help him out.

And when he dares to take it, and ask us to help him and cooperate, we run away.

We choose people to be our leader just simply we lack of criteria, and then when he orders then we disobey?

We heartfully leave the responsibility to him and let him take the plunge, while we see from far?

What are follower are we?

I have never been interested in politics. To make things worst, i hate leadership in my early life. The reason was simple, i was always dream the impossible, to see OTHERS (leader) to be as perfect as in my imagination.

Being raised in Islamic background, with my father was once the Imam, and he never favored PAS. He knew only the “dacing” when it came to voting time. And it affected me, i had never know PAS in depth.

But i was quite stunned to learn in my childhood (primary school) that, my childhood friend supported PAS. I asked him why? That was the first reason of PAS supporter i learned, “aku x suka UMNO”. Came from Banjarish family, which were known for their roughness, the answer was quite unpredictable.

The thing is for a fence sitter like me, i didnt see where the corruptions went on that time. I know kerajaan gave everything, develop kampungs and so on. And we were thankful that time.

For a typical Malay like me, i guest, i love to see both of these giant Malay/Muslim parties to work together. So that i have no doubt while casting my vote.

I doubt to vote PAS because it ties to PKR and DAP. To vote PAS is the same to strengthen PKR and DAP (which for me not in the list for voting).

PAS itself is a good party. Except for its harshness towards his Muslim opponents. Saying voting PAS guarantees you heaven and vice versa is not accepted at all. Also what can we hear from  PAS ceramahs and papers. I guess most of it is in anger tone, tak puas hati, extremism.

A ceramah by PAS ustaz also empty. They can start with beautiful hadith or Quranic ayat but that will only last for 5 minutes or so. Then the rest of 45 minutes, you know it. Probably you heard in your house where the ceramah came from a distant surau which has many powerful speakers. If only the ceramah is good and ear friendly than it is justified, but even the subject is how to take wudu’, the ustaz is like to wage a war or something.

And i reluctant to vote BN (UMNO) because of their known mis-management and corruptions. Although not all, the UMNO knows it better. They just have to think that people are smarter days by days, and those who are corrupt will not have an easy life.

So for a Malay Muslim like me, i always confused when it comes to voting.

The news about Unity talks, is a new thing that i hope it will bring a new beginning on how we run politics.